Ok, so I had a bummer moment. Don't we all? If someone was excited and happy 24/7 I'd honestly want to know what meds they were taking, right? I've done a lot of thinking this weekend, and I've put on my big girl pants, and I'm ready to just tackle life as I see fit. True, my social life (which is usually anything after 10pm at night) will suffer, but that's life! I think I miss the interaction more than I miss the actual locations. I like dancing, and shooting pool and bullshitting with friends, but lately, most of it has all been just sitting around, watching a band, and see my friends get drunk, and watching others drama that to me could be easily avoided unfold. There's nights that I would sit there and try to remind myself why I even decided to go out. I think that's why I've been avoided it all. It's just not me anymore, ya know?
When grocery shopping with Crusher this weekend, there was a pack of cookies that I thought about buying, and he teased and made the comment, "Well, I could get them cuz I'm not the one on a diet." I knew he wasn't talking about my weight, because he thinks I'm just fine, but I did reply by saying, "I'm not on a diet either, I'm trying to change my LIFE!"
And it's true! I'm not looking for the quick fix, low calorie, starve, deprive myself diet. I'm trying to find and perfect a balance in my life between eating healthier, exercising more, so that I can enjoy something like that cookie when and if I choose to. Thing is, the further I go down this path, the less and less I crave those things. When and if I do, believe, me, I'm a grown woman, I'll friggin' buy it if I want it!
Anywho, I'm really feeling positive about the week ahead. One of the things that happened May 1st was my husband losing his job. He has a lead that I'm hoping pays off this week and he'll be back to work. For me, it's going to be hectic, as I have work, parent's meeting and spin on Monday and kickboxing on Tuesday. Wednesday I get to be at the school at 6am and travel with my son and the 5th grade class to Washington DC. I've never had the opportunity to travel to DC, so I think I'm more excited than my son is! Thursday it's back to work, and hopefully getting time in at the gym,and then Friday training with Eric. This last Friday was cut off to only a 45 minute workout with him. Just too much stuff going on, but again, I'm going to get a good night's rest and wake up to a brand new week.
By the way, all of you that read and comment on my blog (even those that read it and chat with me offline about it) I just want to say thanks! It's so great that people can be so inspired and motivated by others, and I really feel that way with a lot of you. Hope your weekends rocked and have a fabulous week!! *hugs*
Shame that you'll be on a trip, we could get together for lunch or something, but you'll probably be all the way across town.
ReplyDeleteI work at 4th and D at Judiciary Square. Will you be anywhere near there?
Let me know, I'd LOVE to see you. If not we'll get together eventually... :)
Oh Cher, I so want to leave a longer note but I am short of time right now. I just want to say that I am so glad & happy that things are looking up & you are feeling positive again. Your thought process is so ON in regards to this: And it's true! I'm not looking for the quick fix, low calorie, starve, deprive myself diet. I'm trying to find and perfect a balance in my life between eating healthier, exercising more, so that I can enjoy something like that cookie when and if I choose to. Thing is, the further I go down this path, the less and less I crave those things. When and if I do, believe, me, I'm a grown woman, I'll friggin' buy it if I want it!
ReplyDeleteYou go girl!!!! We are all with you & best to your hubby AND have fun in DC. Last time I was there was 8th grade!!!!!!!!
HUGS!
Positivity can be hard. But I am glad you are trying. Hope things work out with your husband that is tough, I know. Have fun with your son and with your fitness classes.
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ReplyDeleteI also had my 8th grade trip to DC. You'll be doing A LOT of walking so count that as a workout.
Go Cher!
Hi Cher! Keep up with the pursuit of positive thinking! It's not always easy, but it's better than the alternative. :)
ReplyDeleteI also find it kind of annoying when people tease me about being on a diet (um, no, I'm not). I used to eat in front of them just to spite them, but now I just ignore it, or turn it around on them, so they have to defend themselves. Maybe not so nice, but it's not amusing to me. But I don't want to give them the power over me, and this includes my family, to cause me to eat things that I don't feel like eating, or that don't further my goals.
ReplyDeleteIt seems to really confuse people that I'm trying to lose weight, but am not dieting. But maybe they'll learn something. But I'm doing this for me, the hell with their pre-conceived notions on weight loss, health, etc.
AMEN on that julie!! drives me insane! it's like diet is a dirty word and used inproperly.
ReplyDeleteI hope your hubby has good luck with the job search. Times are tough right now. A friend who used to work at the paper with me is looking for work, and it's an uphill climb.
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