It's a new day and a new chance to shine. Today was my consultation with my lawyer about my divorce, and I'm just feeling very positive, and hoping that everything will go smoothly. With a no fault, no contest divorce, it could be done and over with in 90 days. There's really nothing to "divide up" or split, so I just want my things and want to move on with my life. I have so many options ahead of me with job prospects, that I most likely won't be staying in Pennsylvania. Options include moving back home, moving up to Wisconsin, or even moving to Springfield, IL where there are opportunities at my company's home office.
People change, and I don't hate my husband at all. I wish him well, and would love nothing more to see him move on and do good for himself. Maybe find someone and have a family one day. I don't think ill of him, and I would hope after the initial anger and reaction, he will come to realize that I'm a genuine person that cares about the people in my life, him included. Just because you love someone doesn't mean it was "meant to be". I know some feel I should be spiteful and angry over certain things, but at the end of the day, it does my heart and soul no good to dwell on them.
My friends and family have been overly supportive and for that I thank them. The "Big D", as they refer to it as, is never easy, and makes us question so many things about ourselves. Our morals, character, convictions, personality, views, etc. If anything, I will move forward and make the most of whatever I do, or whoever I eventually decide to get involved with. I love life in that sense. You can CHOOSE to make a different life for yourself, and that's exactly what I'm doing.
By no means do I mean to "dump" anything on my friends and family, but between work, and all the things going on right now, I just wanted to apologize to all my online friends, who I felt I've abandoned by not keeping up with them. Time hasn't been my friend this month at ALL!! LOL. At the same time, a lot have asked what was going on, so there it is. Working both jobs, trying to make it to the gym, going out with friends, and now my premanent Karaoke/DJ gig on Saturday nights, life's been just a crazy high speed rollercoaster! But what a ride!!!
Be safe, be well, and be good to each other! *hugs*